So don’t encourage your itch to comment whenever you find a post that matches your perceptions. Wait. Search the internet to confirm or reject your intuitions. You will find the way forward. But do take time!
I follow the system created by Carl Jung called Jungian Typology. In this system, I am the ENFP type. My first function is Ne which is the abbreviation for Extraverted Intuition. I used to have a psychosis where I suppressed my dominant function. Also for a long time, when I tried to express myself with this function I got negative feedback and failed at tasks that caused me to feel stuck and thus the psychosis that made me feel like doing nothing all the time. I watch the first season of my little pony in 2012 but after that my anxiety was so bad that I did not watch season 2. Being unable to express myself or accomplish goals gave me by anxiety. Anxiety happens when the goal you want to achieve is too hard for you to accomplish so you are just spinning your wheels. Forcing myself to try and do things too hard for me and having setbacks made me shut down. I talked slow and I was sluggish.
Discovering that I was ENFP made a lot of sense to me. I can talk really fast when I suddenly see all the connections that I have in my head. But I am still constrained so I try not to do stuff to hard for me. I still feel stuck at times. It is like my mind contorts itself and I am unable to direct my mind / eyes where they need to go. I put my hand on my head (the right side) close my eyes and try to ease the tension away. I compare my mental state to a person having one-third of his body cramping when he walks. That is why I make so many mistakes.
I have had two hallucinations and two vision since 2015. From mental stress that forced me to experience these events, they pushed my system too far and I was resisting it. (Jesus resisting the devil). It was not fun but the two visions were beautiful.
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I cannot suppress my perceptions of things. I think that to a rational person that irrational people are random and disorganized. By rational I specifical mean Introverted and Extroverted Thinkers specifical Not Feelers and Introverted and Extroverted Intuitives specifically, not Sensors. The reason I seem so random is that I see everything connected together but because I get stuck allot I miss things and make errors that bother Ti, Te personalities. Ti and Te personalities are the ones I suspect who have the best working memory so they can do logic better. I do not have an expanded working memory so I have to find things that match with each other. I cannot construct things in my mind because I cannot hold the parts in my mind. Instead, I follow the links in my head one thing after another. The anxiety I have comes from trying to construct things in my head. To many variables causes burnout or just one step in the process, that I cannot figure out.
Search the internet to confirm or reject your intuitions.
That is what I do but it is difficult because of burn out and the errors that come from different parts of my brain getting stuck. My intuitions are not convergent they are divergent. Divergent is link by link by link by link by link. Convergent fills in the gaps. For me to get anywhere I need to know the connections and as I said errors arise from brain stuckness. Convergent finds all the information so it is like a puzzle in a box, the old-time puzzle with 500 pieces that make a picture. My perception is like Legos. I can suddenly have an idea where the legos connect into anything. New things emerge all the time that is not a static picture.
When I solve a problem I solve it randomly because I am an ENFP. I have had severe brain damage in my life, I am on the spectrum of schizophrenia. I am operating bellow my compacity because of it, I make errors, I leave things incomplete. I am trying to alleviate my systems. Perception is the dominant way my cognition functions and suppressing it lead to my psychosis.