Seizures (Causes)

Disclaimer: This is my own understanding, not medical advice.

From the pills I take I have medications for convulsions, schizophrenia, bipolar mania, and autistic traits.

They help me to function normally and I want to explain how I think they work to show what might be happening.

A seizure is when a burst of electrical impulses happens in the brain at a size disproportional to common functioning. This is created by an influx of calcium into the brain cells because there is not enough magnesium to stop the influx. At a constant rate, calcium is absorbed into the cell as the signals propagate along the nerve fibers. Magnesium for a short time blocks new calcium from entering and as the calcium leaves the cell.

This is the simple version because many other minerals are at play in electrical conductivity. Any disruption can cause a build-up of chemicals that do not balance out creating huge bursts of impulses. A normally functioning brain cell can send multiple bursts of signals at the same time, depending on where they are connected. But together they can get too much or not enough chemicals to maintain balance.

A brain is trying to send signals in a process. To create a representation of the outside world and to change it based on what needs to be done to survive. So it grows in such a way as to direct where signals go that become accurate. Those directions of signal-sending produce the effects of perception and thinking cognition.

This connects back to my conditions of which might not be fully separable cases. Siezers make the brain lose clarity of what is going on so cannot self-correct the way it needs to. It requires having a more stable environment for me to handle things because stress will not allow me to do certain activities normal people can.

Often I have ideas about things and being unable to get what I need makes me reliant on others keeping to myself with little care for myself.

I have a lack of self-awareness for what needs to be done most often only coming to realize I need to do important things too late and becoming manic.

I believe that to make things better, I need to learn more about my physical health.

That requires getting my living conditions correct to allow for a sense of stability.

Faith of the Heart

“The only payoff to having any faith is when it is tested again and again every day” – Falloutboy (Immortals)

What I know to be true is that to believe is to never give up. Is to walk the path of hope against fear. The Bible says: to every man give an answer. It is that as I was growing up too many times I forgot God loves me. I saw the movie Pilgrims Progress in 2022, it reminded me that we are not always at peace with ourselves, “in this world, you will have trials and tribulations”. I was taught as a child that if you ask God to help you in sincerity, he will never abandon you. God can never leave you once you accept him. There are things you need to do. You need to have faith in your heart. As Peter did. Which is the smallest thing in the entire world has the power to overcome every obstacle. God will not let you perish.

Psalm 37

3 Trust in the Lord and do good;
    dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
4 Take delight in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart.

5 Commit your way to the Lord;
    trust in him and he will do this:
6 He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn,
    your vindication like the noonday sun.

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30 The mouths of the righteous utter wisdom,

    and their tongues speak what is just.

31 The law of their God is in their hearts;

    their feet do not slip.

Joan was born to a propertied peasant family at Domrémy in northeast France. In 1428, she requested to be taken to Charles, later testifying that she was guided by visions from the archangel Michael, Saint Margaret, and Saint Catherine to help him save France from English domination. She was not taught to read and write in her childhood

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joan_of_Arc

Yes

Spirit as translated is air

it stands for life

You breathe, feel this energy

The feeling is mysterious.

It is inside you

Focusing on what really matters

Memory works in chunks. The key aspect is getting the right information about a problem at the right time. So when we look into the world it is the salience network that compresses all the irrelevant data to the chunk we should be working on. When that is done we get it right what goal we were looking to achieve. Over many years this process has become highly effective through a critical observation of when we failed and succeded.

Why You Might Be Just Intelligent And Not Wise | Lex Fridman and John Vervaeke

Explaining one’s views is hard sometimes

When ones personal investment in an idea or subject has at most some kind of understanding behind it, this can make it difficult to tell others in such a way then you will be given feedback as to be constructive.

Your understanding is not exactly the same as others so the case will be that people will not talk directly to you but either above you or below you and that makes it president that you listen or they listen.

Without listening in terms of any level of understanding I believe that is an issue of emotional hardening.

We may in some instances be unwilling to go so far because of a need to be right about everything.

This eludes to the fact that misunderstanding makes people upset and upset people defend themselves.

Or they attack people because that would work to make people conform or submit to some person’s demands.

It is because in some way not getting what you want, which is the other person’s recognition, is harmful to the ego.

So to get it from another person we have formed strategies made since childhood to align with the egos survival.

That is, we do today what worked in the past and yet this is no longer optimum for today’s world.

So when two people engage the conflict of the ego arises between them.

What is it a person is trying to get is to be listened to but then we do so in the ways we learned how.

Not knowing we will face a hard reality we can persist in certain strategies of communication not suitable for adults.

The skills for effectively navigating reality will then dent parts of the ego we had once seen as reliable for survival.

This will cause at first a detriment to ones views of others and then to ones sense of self.

By effectively misunderstanding that ones needs must be met differently as adults generally we will fail many times.

The relationship then between people, of demanding things cannot be the answer as that forces a conflict.

Basically, then you will be seen as an enemy, and so what would be best to do is to consider what signals you are giving off to others.

If one is in conflict, mostly intellectual conflicts, there is a way to mitigate the risks of shallow interactions.

First is to recognize ones own emotional signals, second is to understand what they mean.

We might be attached to defending what we are trying to show others.

We are showing what is important and must recognize what that is to us.

People will in some discussions not care what is important to us.

And they will not care about listening.

To tell when a person listens we will see them using neutral language and informative language.

The tone will refer to disagreement and not attaching the character of the other person.

It will also not be passive-aggressive. Meaning it will not demean you by attributing malice to your views.

To carry oneself in a conversation look for what response is bringing a person to better understanding not less.

The effect may not always work but to try is to dampen one’s emotional radicality.

If a person simply does not understand it is best to leave the conversation.

It is also best to know how invested they are in listening to you.

The ones who listen are the ones who add value to your life.

They help you see things differently without diminishing what is important to you.

INFJ(?)

I was thinking of the whole stack of functions for this type.

I had recently met a true INTJ who had me restructure my whole view on what type is.

First, the INTJ really is a form of the archetype of the alchemist.

They look into the relationship between mind and matter.

They do experiments to find answers to mystical questions.

They hold certain things as important in relation to introverted feelings.

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INFJ though has in contrast to INTJ the functions of Fe Ti

Fe is more about reading the energy of situations and people.

Ti contemplates more than experiments.

So where the INTJ will find the external world as the mystical realm and grasp a hold of some feeling to it with importance. The INFJ will see that some aspect of self influences the world outside to correlate with the inside.

In other words, the INTJ controls the mystical powers of the external world by willpower. Whereas the INFJ sees the world as the self making it both and object of ones knowing and a reflection of the psyche.

This is where the INFJ has as it may a tuning into others. INTJ commands the forces of nature with their insights. INFJ allows things as they are but given that the external forces are psychic forces the separation between the two blurs.

A synchronicity has meaning to the psyche in the way where it feels like it is caused by the person or an outside force. That separation is why Fi can highlight spiritual powers in terms of angels and gods. Fe though can be lost I the self of others as if all were a dream. Making it hard to separate ones being from another.

This is not empathy in the normal sense of caring about what happens to another but is the perspective of what happens to another as it happens to the self. The person becomes the other person in some way and is not just repulsed or attracted to them.

This is what makes the INFJ capable of relating to the other. To be in their mind and head.

Yet also the INFJ has Ti and this allows a certain containment of the impulses to overly correct when it happens that one holds back a set of actions to be effective. Ti can see where one fits into the overall picture.

Ti is used to separate the psychic materials in the same way Te in INTJ can separate physical materials.

Ti can take note of when a true condition has been met for an outside force to be and where an inside force lays.

When an INFJ develops a system it is personal and contains many psychic events.

The person may have a prevailing sense of the auras of people without seeing colors necessarily.

This will tell them everything they need to know of a person.

The person with dom Fe and auxiliary Ni cannot separate from the affects of others so easily. They are drawn into the crowd and more so must have them come to a synchronous assembly.

The strong Fi type will at the core need control by the will. They will the effects upon the world or they feel things in the intensity of will by itself undirected to the outside. With passion, Fi will love or hate intensely feel intensely but their actions with Te only show when they need more internally. Because the object of the feeling needs to be to exist to be close by. Desire and want when you do not have is the case for action.

Fe is its ability to rarely act from desire or want because Ti is to have already some kind of closure. Only it is that Fe must act too in the separation of the self from the other or it will conform to the will of the other. The person with Fe wants people to be in agreement and this creates a barrier when Fi is in-accommodateable. That which is too important has no negotiation to Fi – meaning any obstruction to it can blind Fe in serving it. Where Fe Ti can make room for a temporary settlement of not having, Fi Te must have in the intensity the sot after goal. This can make a person who wants now what the other cannot provide now irritable. And with this kind of feeling and thinking it makes it an ego threat. A core identity to Fi Te will is something that blinds them to options Ti Fe might know. Anger is not reasonable and you cannot say no to it without conflict. A core value is always defended, getting what you want can only be done one way in that case, exerting your will on others. Fe Ti needs more time to become angry because it has a more or less a calm nature, to be unsettled though will require a greater number of actions to restore the equilibrium that may overwhelm them and lead to mistakes.

Type

Introversion = reflecting

Extraversion = taking in

Perception (irrational)

N – abstracting

S – detecting

Judgment (rational)

F – valuation

T – causative

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Ni – knowing without previous forethought (a confluence of internal events)

Ne – everything with everything else (what is with what and could be)

Si – the total body as a conduit for one’s energy (settling as a movement to moment being)

Se – awareness of all outside things as they are (driven in-out, body as a temporary channel)

Fi – what one is in part or full agreement with or not (resistance to or acceptance of bad or good inside oneself)

Fe – the extent to which the outside world has amiability (the outside must be in accordance with what is wanted)

Ti – making a mental structure with the knowledge one has (the deep extrapolation of ideas to their conclusions)

Te – coming to understand what is by the means of the order of things (finding what is true by experience)

Intelligence with Nested Oscillation

A Reason for All Things

There is a utilitarian algorithm for how choices are made.

This algorithm is stochastic and probabilistic.

This algorithm is also self-correcting.

What it does is look ahead.

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In my view, God looking at all futures balanced what would happen by a bias.

To make things happen he made them feel good or bad.

This way we could learn what to do and not do.

This needed to work in parallel.

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In the end, God saw how:

At a cosmic quantum level,

Everything would happen.

Portable Brain Scanners

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